Sometimes I just go blank, stuck into dark moods, can't focus, can't think. It's hard.

I put a mask on the face, try to pretend that I am good, that I am still the person with smile on face, the one full of energy.

I told myself at night, "You need to be strong, stand up ! " "Don't be beaten, fight back." At first, I recovered very soon, but as time passes, I just feel coming back becomes harder and harder.

I am tired.