Every process presents a valuable lesson but the process itself is never easy. I know this to be true and there are alternatives such as paying someone else and skipping the rigorous process straight to result. I been thinking that maybe it is worth it to pay someone else to do it and save myself from this pain and suffering. People may say that you missed out on the opportunity of learning something or gaining experience through the process and that you just lack patience and endurance. It is true, my impatience and lack of experience in this specific task/project is make me miserable and suffering emotionally, this feeling of hopelessness and self doubts is taking a toll.